How I'm doing so far.

My dear friends ask me frequently on how I'm doing and how life is treating me lately. I have to admit, it is still hard to wake up every morning thinking that she is at work, only to realize she is not coming back at 5p.m. I'd blurt a stupid question like "Why is mommy not home yet?" at times and my grandma would shed a tear. 

My relatives are still wondering how my mum could pass away, as she was healthy at her own pace. Every relative that came to my house would say this, "How did it happen? She seemed so healthy and good." Those were the times my bubble would feel like it's reaching its maximum capacity, ready to burst. I understand it was very sudden, and many people are still trying to comprehend how it could have happened. But, asking that question is just as silly as asking, "1 plus 1 is what??"

If I were God, I'd answer that question, but no, I'm not. Things happen for a reason, and that reason is the only thing that keeps me strong right now. I know, with her passing, I now have a guardian angel that watches over my family and I every second of our lives. She may not be there physically to be touched and hold, but she is there emotionally and spiritually. 

It's been 5 months since her sudden passing, and I take comfort in raising my two rabbits, Lola and Mojo. They keep me happy and their silly actions are priceless, especially when they're doing the Binkies (google it). Lola is the Miss-Know-it-all and Mojo is the Miss-HUH?-what's-going-on?? rabbit. The icing on the cake is both Lola and Mojo do know how to give bunny kisses. :) I love it when they place their paws on my face and start licking it. I tell you, it's thisclose to the feeling of having a Ferrero Rocher in your mouth.

Despite of all the things that have happened, such as my mum's passing and ignorant people who actually rejoiced in my mum's passing, I am thankful every morning that there is life ahead of me, and I've been given a life's brush to paint over the future canvas. I am thankful for beautiful people who are constantly there for me, you dearies are truly the friends I'll treasure with all of my heart. 

I'm determined to achieve my goals and I learnt that you can get what you want if you work for it. So, she won't be here for my graduation and wedding day, but I know, there are bigger things happening up in Heaven and in her own ways, she will celebrate those days for me. 

Here's to be grateful for maturity, self-believe, determination, beautiful days and faith!