You & I fall disgustingly fast.

I am cheating. I know I'm not supposed to cheat, but I am. There's this guy, he drives me crazy and he's the epitome of "butterflies in my stomache". I get giddy whenever I see him, because he is just so captivating. 

He sends my heart to a wild beating sensation, and I imagine what it's like to be in his arms. I am mending a broken heart, I've been crying my heart out for months, and there he is, talking to another girl. I can't be with him, if he's someone else's boyfriend.  So, I wait. 

I don't know what happens next. We just begin talking, like friends. He's bald, and a tad skinny, but he's alright. I like him this way. Here I am, talking to this guy who is every (well almost) girl's favorite eye candy. It's weird and he just hands me a few bars of white chocolates. Does he know that I like chocolates? Then, he offers to walk me to Civic Center's library, as it's my daily routine to walk up there to study. We just sit there and talk for hours. 

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That was five years ago, in 2005 when I first met the guy who still makes me all giddy inside. I was mending a broken heart, and he had a crush on me for a couple of years before he decided maybe he was a little too late. I didn't think that I would actually date him, because he was so easy to talk to and he was my new best friend. We would spend hours talking about boyfriends, unrequited love, how he tried to win my heart in 2003 but failed BIG time, and other nonsense. 

I didn't have any date for school's prom, so I asked him to accompany me for the dinner. I remember how cute he was when he asked me to pick out a color for his prom's suit. Not a suit really, just a button-up shirt and pants. I remember how shy he was when he saw me at the restaurant's doorway, and soon a text message came in that said, "You look gorgeous." I did my own makeup that night, and I designed the dress that I wore. It was magical. Surreal, no?

It was the time when digital cameras were considered super luxurious items and cell phones with cameras were almost beyond us. We had only a picture taken that night. A PICTURE. Can you imagine? A beautiful night but only a picture was taken. 

12 October 2005. My birthday, and the day he asked me to be his girlfriend with a bar of chocolate. I said, I'll think about it. 

13 October 2005. I said yes. :D

Many things have happened between 2005 and 2010. We've changed physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. People thought we'd never last this long, because there were so many girls pining over him. Don't roll your eyes, it's true.

Arkip (not Arkib) Negeri Sarawak.

Fact numero uno:

He's my safest place to hide. When my mom passed away, he held my hands and kept me smiling throughout the mourning weeks. He was my source of strength when everyone else was falling apart. Go listen to BSB- Safest place to hide, and you'll understand better.

Fact numero dos:

We can talk for hours and sit in silence for even longer. People say silence is awkward, but for me, it shows how comfortable the couple is with each other without needing to say so many things. Silence can mean how much you understand your partner. When you say too many things to each other, things may get misconstrued. 

It's that feeling, when he puts his arms around me, a sense of serenity fills me immediately. It's that feeling that makes you somewhat sleepy or drowsy, and just wanting to fall asleep in his arms.

Fact numero tres:

Forever isn't in our dictionary. "Loving you as long as I can" is. Bless you sweethearts for "I Love You forever." Nothing lasts, that's the fact. What we can do is to love each other as long as we can, because forever is too big a journey most humans cannot reach and accomplish. Things can happen in a split second, and most of the times you are not prepared for what's coming towards you. 

Arkip (not Arkib) Negeri Sarawak.

Our song this year?

Jason Castro- Let's Fall in Love again.

That's right. Let's. :D

5 more months, babe, and we ain't never felt so alive. We'll be reaching our 5th year together.


Happy 4th year 5th month anniversary, sweetie. :D